Laughing at Myself

I write word by word into a sentence and a paragraph. I write entire feelings of mine. this is me who truly love you. really I am not sad at all or kinda bad feeling right now. if someday I'm not getting married, don't ask me why. like you've ever said to me, "no need to looking for, just waiting". and now, I'm still waiting you. if someday you leave me and find a new one, the question is answered.

Thanky thanks

I cant thank you enough to my man. he always helping me ANYTIME.

Never Too Old for Fav Song

Shania Twain - You're Still The One

Looks like we made it
Look how far we've come my baby
We mighta took the long way
We knew we'd get there someday 

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong 

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night 

Ain't nothin' better
We beat the odds together
I'm glad we didn't listen
Look at what we would be missin' 

They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong 

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night 

(You're still the one)
You're still the one I run to
The one that I belong to
You're still the one I want for life
(You're still the one)
You're still the one that I love
The only one I dream of
You're still the one I kiss good night

NOM NOM NOM

EAT FOOD EAT FOOD EAT FOOD HAPPY PARTNER! YEAY! aku dan threeki suka banget kuliner. kami udah nyobain makan makanan dari berbagai tempat di kota kami. mulai dari jajanan kecil pinggir jalan atau di pasar malam, makanan 'kantong' mahasiswa, tempat makan yang lumayan punya 'nama' (sebut aja semiresto hihihi), pokoknya banyak deh. tapi kayaknya kami ga pernah makan di cafe deh, soalnya kami ga terlalu suka ke tempat yang banyak anak nongkrong lagi pada nongski hahay.

acara malam minggu kami berwarna warni. karena ga cuma sekedar jalan ke mall, nonton, makan, blablabla gitu terus sampe berbulan bulan. simple aja, kadang pergi ke pasar malam cuma mau beli pentol ngebor, goreng, rebus, bakar dan beli es teh sebagai minumannya, bair ga seret bro hehehe. gimana? seru kan? seriously, that was fun! you have to try it with your partner or your friend. go to pasar malam enjoying saturday night with pentol dan es. iya, kami suka jajanan kecil jaman SD. bisa ngabisin berapa belas ribu buat jajan doang hehe but we're happy. peka banget deh dengar suara bel paklek pentol dari kejauhan dan kami udah siap beli.

Ice cream! paling ga tahan sama godaan es krim. kalo aku lagi ngambek, ditawarin es krim yah kadang luluh juga deh ahahaha. ke mall cuma mau beli es krim dan numpang duduk yang ga cuma sebentar doang tapi lama karena kami terlalu asik ngobrol. kami kalo ngobrol apa aja jadi bahan pembicaraan kami. mulai dari selalu ngebahas boneka ayam dan strawberry kesayangan kami, sampai orang orang yang duduk di dekat kami udah ganti orang hihihi. es krim favorit kami adalah rasa karamel! ew, jadi pengen huhu. biasanya sih aku beli waffle, threeki beli es krim. terus kami makan waffle di cocol es krim.

itu tadi beberapa jajanan kecil dan makanan ringan yang jadi andalan kami berdua. masih banyak sih, kayak kentang putar, kentang goreng yang selalu kami umpetin diam diam di tas waktu ke bioskop, crepes, cimol, jajanan franchise dan lain lain dan kawan kawan dan sebagainya. kalo makanan utama, paling sering sih ya apalagi kalo bukan ayam lagi, ayam lagi, ayam lagi, lagi lagi ayam. beda di olahan doang. ayam goreng, ayam tepung, ayam bakar, ayam penyet, ayam gepuk sampai ayam keju. kalo bakso, batagor, siomay, tahu tek tek, mie pangsit itu termasuk makanan ga terlalu utama hahahaha karena kami bisa makan lagi sehabis itu. oh iya! kami langsung mupeng makan banget kalo udah nyium harum nasi goreng yang lagi di racik sama penjualnya kalo kami lewat di depan warung tenda gitu. duuuhhh, tergoda banget. nasi goreng yang paling enak menurut aku sih di dekat rumah teman aku. kami rela jauh jauh kesana demi perut diisi nasi goreng disitu.

air bumbu, gurih, asapnya masih mengepul, yup makanan berkuah. coto makassar masuk di daftar makanan utama. porsinya emang ngenyangin karena di makan bareng ketupat. tahu campur juga seger loh apalagi dimakan pedas wuihhh enak parah deh. shabu shabu jadi makanan yang masuk di waiting list kami hahaha dan akhirnya kesampean juga hihi. karena di kota kami makanan daerah banyak tersebar dipenjuru tempat, yang tadinya makanan untuk sarapan sampai ada di jual waktu malam loh. contohnya nasi kuning dan lontong sayur. kami jarang bisa sarapan bareng, untungnya malam hari ada yang jual makanan itu. lontong sayur ternyata tetap enak kok kalo di makan malam hari hehe.

makanan lain beserta ceritanya buanyak banget kalo dituangin ke post box ini. kenapa aku milih ngebahas tentang makanan? aku paling susah nahan lapar. apalagi ngemil. kesel sendiri kalo harus ngebayangin makanan tapi ga kesampean. aku mau bahas ini juga karena makanan adalah salah satu perjalanan aku dan threeki. makanya kami usahakan datang deh kalo ada kondangan hihi apalagi threeki doyan banget sama kambing guling, rela nagntri panjang deh. kalo aku ga mau melewatkan soto banjar. dan...kami ga bakal menyia nyiakan es krim yang udah disediakan hahaha. we are having so much fun with our culinary tour. one of my fav part with threeki.

happyyy!

Na'nite

Mkayyy, I am waiting for nothing. then, I decide to get some sleep after this before I wake up in early morning. and once again I let my post go into the draft... why?? as usual not finding my mood booster and a lot of ideas were gone just like the wind blowing. good night so you can sleep good...or well.

Eyes Never Lie

find out who I am through my eyes. see how tired I am how hard life I've been through. facing and holding problem that'll always come every time. no matter what happen I have to deal with it as long as my eyes open and as long as I breathe. maybe I complain too much or I'm the most loser on earth. here, I still asking to myself who am I? why am I like this? feeling tired and sad more often ain't because I'm weak, I just need more strength and support from...the closest ones or anyone or stranger. I open my mind and realize I'll never handle either bitter or a sweetness of life by myself. I can be the most cheerful person all day long and act like nothing happen but deep down inside this heart is so fragile. I lost my confidence since I wrecked. not brave enough to speak out. I talk to blame people, judge them, I really want to hate hate hate them all because they treat me bad like I'm the baddest. when they treat me well it just in front of my face. I want to ignore what they say about myself behind me but sometimes anything they say about the bad side from myself is a big 'warning'. I mean I have to reform to be a better person also change the bad habbit from myself, more nicer to anyone, eliminate hatred even nobody like me. I know it ain't easy. I often write post like this on some post before. word by word almost the same and repeated. I think where the problem came is inside of me. I myself, who think none of them care about what I feel what I mean what I want what I need. look, I'm here just like my own bread without flavor. tasteless. people just want to eat a bread with honey and peanut butter right beside a cup of hot tea, breakfast menu that people always wait in the morning. mine? my honey and peanut butter are expired. no one touch them. so, do I look never be happy? sit down here with me and I'd be happy then.

What's Next?

You may agree with me if someone/something bothering and do annoying/bad things to you. surely you choose to leave it behind so you dont need to put it in your mind and wasting your time to think of it all. moreover if someone broke your heart into a million pieces and s/he cant fix into one piece just like before. what do you expect? forgive them? yup, you should. forget about what they did to you? can you? I'm not. how about give them second chance? well, big no, but last chance. wait wait, sure? are you sure that they wont do the same like in the past? actually, back to her/himself how they make you believe them like the first time. 

to put trust in people such a hard thing especially for me. once I trust you, I really do. once you ruin it, I'll be a really really really hard stone to you. I think the best effort to make me feel better is letting me go, so you can make a better life and will get another happiness with someone else. dont be like you have no one. I dont know why is sooo hard to make my self just be positive thinking. is this called disappointed-deepest level?