Still Remaining

I'm ready to pick up my phone if you call me at nite. the best time conversation comes in the middle of the night. we livin' in the same town. could you please tell me how to be away from all about you? I go there, go here, go everywhere i can not even forget every places that used to be our favorite places whether it place to eat, to play, to watch, to shop or whatever

sing along while on our way to go to somewhere

we laughed, we made funny jokes, we shared anything, we looked at each other

there were so much things that we made together and we did together

everything what we do, we do it together

good and bad

may joy replaces tears, laugh replaces anger, strength replaces weakness

I would like to see you whenever in a good place

like you've said, it's been a long time since we didn't talk each other

I would like to sing our fav song with my terrible voice and your sweet voice and you play a guitar in between. I bet it would be perf collabs! ha? what was that? :))

like you ever said, you miss singing with me

I hope you eat well

Eyes Never Lie

find out who I am through my eyes. see how tired I am how hard life I've been through. facing and holding problem that'll always come every time. no matter what happen I have to deal with it as long as my eyes open and as long as I breathe. maybe I complain too much or I'm the most loser on earth. here, I still asking to myself who am I? why am I like this? feeling tired and sad more often ain't because I'm weak, I just need more strength and support from...the closest ones or anyone or stranger. I open my mind and realize I'll never handle either bitter or a sweetness of life by myself. I can be the most cheerful person all day long and act like nothing happen but deep down inside this heart is so fragile. I lost my confidence since I wrecked. not brave enough to speak out. I talk to blame people, judge them, I really want to hate hate hate them all because they treat me bad like I'm the baddest. when they treat me well it just in front of my face. I want to ignore what they say about myself behind me but sometimes anything they say about the bad side from myself is a big 'warning'. I mean I have to reform to be a better person also change the bad habbit from myself, more nicer to anyone, eliminate hatred even nobody like me. I know it ain't easy. I often write post like this on some post before. word by word almost the same and repeated. I think where the problem came is inside of me. I myself, who think none of them care about what I feel what I mean what I want what I need. look, I'm here just like my own bread without flavor. tasteless. people just want to eat a bread with honey and peanut butter right beside a cup of hot tea, breakfast menu that people always wait in the morning. mine? my honey and peanut butter are expired. no one touch them. so, do I look never be happy? sit down here with me and I'd be happy then.

What's Next?

You may agree with me if someone/something bothering and do annoying/bad things to you. surely you choose to leave it behind so you dont need to put it in your mind and wasting your time to think of it all. moreover if someone broke your heart into a million pieces and s/he cant fix into one piece just like before. what do you expect? forgive them? yup, you should. forget about what they did to you? can you? I'm not. how about give them second chance? well, big no, but last chance. wait wait, sure? are you sure that they wont do the same like in the past? actually, back to her/himself how they make you believe them like the first time. 

to put trust in people such a hard thing especially for me. once I trust you, I really do. once you ruin it, I'll be a really really really hard stone to you. I think the best effort to make me feel better is letting me go, so you can make a better life and will get another happiness with someone else. dont be like you have no one. I dont know why is sooo hard to make my self just be positive thinking. is this called disappointed-deepest level?

Vice Versa

Even if all of the colors only black and white left, we can still coloring the world with love, smile and laugh just like the result of old photos in 40's and earlier.. I always try to make people happy. I don't want to make anybody feel uncomfortable around me. I personally the type of person which easily laughing. sometimes I do silly things to throw away the boredom and stress. watching sit-com series, remember those funny things, being around people that I love the most are all I need to balance the bittersweet of life.. you might have thought that I could easily through it all. just smiling and laughing all the time and always keep positive then problem solved and go to sleep. not that easy. beyond that, I'm not as strong as you thought. but I don't want to show it in front of people. I just don't want anybody knows if I was sad or see me cry.. nobody knows when the drizzle become heavy rain and who knows it suddenly stop then the sun with the rainbow comes to warm us..

I Love This Part

Almost every time when I think about you I love to spread the smile. thank you thank you thank you thank you.

Untitled

Been a week til right now this quote always running in my mind..
"Kalau aku mulai ragu dan menyerah, tolong kamu jangan begitu mudah melepasku ya.."

Where To Go

Everything is jumbled up! I need a perfect place to hide...