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Life (not so) Update

Hello? anybody here? I still write routinely but all the posts end up "save as draft" for these couple years. hundreds of memories and stories I delayed to share in this platform. life's good sometimes, terrible many times. I failed to complete my ed on time, failed to build and develop my career in early to mid 20s. failed to participate in volunteer or any beneficial activities to improve myself as a human being. failed to grow my sense of creativity which my passion. failed to make people around me proud of my achievements. I hope my future is not tremendously awful as in the past.

Hold on

knew something but I remain silent

Flowersss!

Some of you may know that I do not like flowers because it has the right to live as a plant not to be picked. but the thing is I sent flowers to friends several times and I found myself interested in knowing a little more about flowers. the first three are my favorite. I'll tell you later why the title of this post should be like that.

Would You?

indeed you do not need to bring about what you have given to a person. BUT sometimes you have to, when THAT person does not understand and appreciate back. for what? for slapped his face. with all things you have sacrificed for him. be grateful to those who love each other, not only one side. fully understand and treat you very special because you are the one for him as a loving partner.

this is someone who stand next to you from the beginning when you were fragile, been there in every process of your life between teens to mature.. would you take her to the top of your palace?

Is The Fault in Me?

they have pretty face, I am not.
they wear clothes that makes catchy-look in public, I just wear my only few clothes again and again.

they live in a 'royal fam', I live in provide-enough-what I need-fam.
they have graduated, I have not.
they are dating someone with the same major they take in college, we have different major.

they may looks good in face, but I have bigger heart than theirs.
they may dress like a princess, but I wear any clothes that fit me.

they may have a car so when go out in sunny or rainy day your skin wont get burn or your shoes wont get wet, but I can only wait for people who come late for hours trying hard to understand the reason behind.
they may get perfect scores in school, but I am not worse.
they may study with the same subject, we can do the same like them but with different case we still help each other in which we got another knowledge.

does not mean I am not trying to do face and skin treatments, physically I am not look pretty as them but at least I want have healthy skin without injections or other instant way.

does not mean I want to look bad, I just do not know how to style to attract people.

does not mean I can not give my best, maybe I often complaining but also I try to accepted.

does not mean I was a fool, I do really want to earn money by working in a great company where I surrounding by an environment that appreciate my passion.

does not always about have the same major, it is how to treat each other well and who is always there for you not only in good times but also in hard times.

Hi, There..

I never thought this day would come. after so many heartbreaking-things I went through by myself. I refused to fall, I told myself not to drop the tears. I do not know what do you want and your reason behind why you come back here..

I'm still here, always, in the place where I was, the one that accept you for who you are and was. as one package, not only about good ones, but also horrible and teribble acts and words..

What's in our journey is just like a million stars in the nitey sky, it's countless. I do not know how I count our feeling to each other. whether growing or something more than that. *try to keep my mind to stay positive *quite difficult than you think